I needed to take a teeny-tiny break.
Over the last three years...
my family has been on a roller coaster...
living apart...
jobless...
employed....
living apart...again...
now moving (soon!) to another state.
During this time, I have lost sight of a lot of things.
I have been happy and angry and just plain pissed off.
And had a lot of late night pity parties.
I have embraced some changes and hid from others.
I have had the support of some really amazing people in my life,
but I cannot rely on anyone to stop the ping pong balls of life
that are bouncing around in my head.
I need to do it without any unnecessary distractions.
During this time, everything in my life has suffered....
I have had health scares.
I am flat out exhausted...I think I run on coffee alone.
I "snap" at the kids.
I "snap" at my husband.
I just "snap."
And that is not working anymore.
I need to get my house in order.
I need to help my kids with some things.
I need to go back to appreciating what I have.
I need to take care of myself.
(I did a detox and felt amazing...
but my bad habits overtook the good ones...again)
BUT THE CHAOS MUST STOP.
I have decided to take 10 days off to Cut Through the Chaos in my life.
Why 10 days...I have no idea...it just sounded right.
I am really good at starting things.
I have developed a lot of good habits.
Then promptly developed a lot of bad habits to counteract the good ones.
In the next 10 days I will focus on some house issues,
some kid issues, prepare better meals, exercise more,
focus on why my mind is filled with chaos, and get back on track.
And hopefully emerge with a better attitude and a clear head.
I know we all have buys crazy lives.
I am no different than anyone else.
I used to be able to keep it all in check...
But after ignoring the signs for too long,
I know I need the time.
I have not been able to pull it all together.
I want to be a good mother.
I want to be a good wife.
I want to accomplish my dreams.
I need to clear my head.
Fresh air, family, and friends will help.
I want to draw with my girlie.
Watch my boy play baseball.
Take walks on the beach...
collect some sea glass to take to Texas.
Listen to the ocean from my deck
(a sound I will soon not hear anymore on a daily basis).
So, thank you for listening, for reading, and being supportive!
You are awesome!
See ya next week!
(I can't stay away!)
If anyone has any tips and tricks to share on getting your act together
go ahead and share them hear...PLEASE!